Sunday, May 13, 2012

central park - central haven


new york cities greatest attraction

central park. 
my central haven. 

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for the unfairly unfamiliar, i share with you a few facts.



it was created in the 1870's as a class leveler. a place where all new yorkers (no matter the race or class) could come & escape the insanity of the city. 
 -amazing, 142 years on, it's still working a treat.
it spans 843 acres!!! HUGE!!!
it has 8 ponds, 1 used to be a fully functioning reservoir supplying drinking water to manhattanites.
it has it's very own zoo.
in summer you can catch an outdoor show at one of the stages, 
in winter you can ice skate on 2 of the ponds. 
apparently, people even cross country ski & sledge through it during snow storms!! 
it boasts 8 baseball fields. 
you can hire your very own row boat to explore "the lake". 
(or grab a gondola ride if walking around this beast wears you out).  
yoko ono paid $1mill to build "strawberry fields" across from the apartment where john lennon was shot  -a large field for picnicking.
cars & taxis drive the many roads that run through it, 
whilst people & horse drawn carriages take to the wide foot paths. 
every sat & sun in spring you can be thoroughly entertained by the roller disco set up right in the middle!! Hilarious.. a must!
 it's trees are so abundant you feel as if you are in a rain forest.

the park is smack bang in the middle of manhattan. the worlds most visited city. the city that never sleeps. the city that never shuts up!!! -yet once its' dominating trees & rocks surround you, 
you could be anywhere...  


now that you are familiar, you may be able to grasp the next paragraph a little more closely to my wave length.

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today i said goodbye to one of my most beloved nyc hide outs. 

my central haven. 
-what will hypnotize me now that you have left my life.

 i entered it aware that this was goodbye.
i knew that this was it. 
it was a sunny 25degree saturday, i had my comfy slouchy pants on (perfect for laying in the grass), i had my trusty grass laying sarong in my bag (can't walk around with a moist bum..), a full bottle of water & nothing to do all afternoon but enjoy my haven. 

the fun thing about central park is when you go, you never really need a plan. sure it's HUGE & you couldn't possibly walk it in a day. but once inside, the trees capture you & the paths adopt you. therefore, you just end up where you end up. 

somehow.. after 7 visits i found a new path. 
the path led me to some regular sights & some new ones. 
but best of all, it just took me winding around my haven.



i took my last stroll through massive bike lanes.
sat for the last time on the grassy patches near the baseball field, (jac!! so clever sitting on the seats last week -i had to dodge that many fly balls today!!!).
took my last grass lying gaze at the romantic row boats.
i laid shoeless in the grass staring up at the beautiful trees.
i stumbled across a violinist playing songs from pride & prejudice (my favorite movie...), i could have fallen asleep on my chair listening to her play & the birds chirp in the tress - one of the most beautiful things i have ever heard.
i lay reading in the sun whilst listening to an old folk singer.
& i took my last hysterical glimpse at the roller disco.
  


...all for the last time. 


*****

i left just as the sun was setting. 
my sadness over shadowed by my hypnotic state.  
i was relaxed. 
i was at ease. 
& i was ready to face the insanity once again.





































...tried for an hour to post a video of the roller disco for you.  

will keep trying!!!  you really MUST see it.



Thursday, May 3, 2012

thoughts & notes


the more alone you are, the louder your thoughts get. 


sometimes i'll stop & write myself a little note, or an email, with thoughts. thoughts that stop me in my tracks. thoughts that i couldn't bare to ever forget. 
sometimes it happens late at night, other times it happens whilst i'm staring up at some amazing monument, sometimes it happens in the starbucks queue...  

tonight's thoughts - definitely ones never to forget. 


*****


how do i hold onto this feeling, how do i retain this boldness.
 will i just become the same person i was before... surely i can't, surely there will be an air about me that exudes what i have done, what i have experienced.  What i have seen.

for me, this was huge. i am doing it, i did it, i did alone.


*****


my mind is different now, i feel like i want more for me than what i
 had before. 
sure i still want career success, but i want culture, i want regular eye opening experiences, i want knowledge, ...i just want more.
 
how do i not just slip right back into the rut i had before... how do i change when everything around me remains the same.  
 it's now like the coming home will be harder than the leaving. 
                                                             

*****
 
a piece of home arrives tomorrow. a short delightful brunette reminder of what i am heading back to. this will be good, this will be my trial run... My Test... Can i remain my solo self around those that know me best.


Sent from Olivia's iPad




Wednesday, May 2, 2012

the bb


it takes 40minutes to walk it

hundreds of tourists do it everyday

its' gates look like perfectly carved candle flames 
miranda & steve reclindled their love on it

 
for me - it wasn't about crossing the brooklyn bridge, it was all about seeing my manhattan. 




staring across the east river to manhattan was a reminder. 
a reminder i didn't really need.. & definitely wasn't expecting. 
but a reminder non the less. 
seeing manhattan from across the water,  
seeing it so close i could touch it.  
the dream is happening. 
the dream is right there. 
cross that old darn bridge & get back to it!!! 


*****



 ...before heading back to my dream destination.  i took a minute 
(maybe an hour...) 
i took my time, to sit back & appreciate the fact that i could now sit across from the place i had only dreamt of & recognise it like i had spent my whole life their. 

chrysler, empire, one world, woolworth, city hall, GE. 
i know you now & i can't imagine life without you.  

















get lost!



it only took me a day to figure out the best thing to do in downtown manhattan.... 

GET LOST!!!!

....it ain't hard.


*****


greenwich village, west village, soho. 

the streets a crooked. the restaurants are life changing (waist changing..). the cherry blossums are white. 
the shops - are insane!!!!!  

lower broadway. prince. spring. mott. elizabeth. broome. mulberry. 
-take my car, take my collaroy apartment.  
but never take me away from the streets of soho. 

you'll find a new park every day, a new store every 5 minutes, a new restaurant every night. 
but some how.. you can never ever remember how the hell to get back there!!!! 



 alexander & ralph getting acquainted..